MUSINGS

loving the impossible, a diary. The water is too hot, I always do this, I always make the water too hot. This is my morning ritual, shower then turn the faucet to the tub, relief stress salts( they only melt in water that's too hot, otherwise they lie on the bottom of the tub and feel like tiny fragments of sand) then I ease myself down slowly into the too hot water for a long soak and to finish my favorite novel of the moment. But today it's different, just two weeks ago, I thought, I sat here with tears streaming down my face. What did I do to deserve this? But love him and be there, always unconditionally. No goodbye, just the emptiness, left behind with no goodbye. After six years of what? A relationship? I don't know... A lot of time, a lot of love, and then no goodbye. But today, I'm back. My mind is sharp as a tack, analytical, logical, resourceful, I am back. With one exception. I will never, ever give my heart away again. Time is too short and love is too painful. You go to all the love-sick movies, you listen to all the music about love lost, found, on, and on infinitem. But you never find out what's the point? Why do some get lucky? Or are they lucky really? Love, it takes a lot of work a lot of feelings hurt and put aside, I knew from the start it wasn't going to be permanent. That's why I lied about my age. What difference would that make, we were never going to be together. It was impossible from the very beginning. Although in the deep recesses of my heart and mind I secretly wanted it to be possible.

Breaking news on CNN

BLIND ACTIVIST, CHEN, FREED BY CHINESE GOVERNMENT but extended family still in danger, have been arrested on trumped charges Chen and wife and 2 children arriving New York today.

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HEMINGWAY & GELLHORN by j. Tuccille

Am reading a book about Hemingway and Gellhorn (his third or fourth wife), that is soon to be a major film, it's mostly about his time in the Florida Keys and the USA during the hard times before and during the great depression, it is an eye-opener that should be told! scary that we seem to be living it again, if it is true it is changing my mind about a lot of things. ·

BATTERED WOMEN IN PRISON

QUESTION: WHY ARE BATTERED WOMEN IN PRISON? friends I am copying this from sorrygnat's email to me today, please go to sorrygnat website for more important information for all of us. perhaps we can be of help. battered women in prison by sorrygnat Readers, further into my posts, you will find entries of T.C. Paulinkonis, her mom, Barbara, and life at Chowchilla Prison, a too hot in the summer and too cold in the winter prison, where T.C. sends, and I receive, or I send, and she receives mail. She has been in prison for 22 years. Her mother may soon be released, due to age and infirmity and go to a halfway house.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

List of Some Favorite Writers

Kathy Reichs John Grisham Aaron Patterson David Baldacci Patricia Cornwell Robert le Carre Sue Grafton Sara Gruen Janet Evanovich Greg Larsson I love mystery and intrigue, it's probably obvious; don't care much for romance novels.

JUDGING

Judging others is strongly discouraged in the Baha'i Faith. "O Son of Being! How couldst thou forget thine own faults and busy thyself with the faults of others? Whoso doeth this is accursed of me." So many messages we get in day to day life encourage judging others. For instance, we learn that it is humorous to find faults with others. Sometimes it seems that finding other people's problems would somehow lessen our own. Many gossip simply to alleviate boredom. However, striving to refrain from judging others, whether vocally or internally, helps us to grow spiritually and to feel happier.

DO YOU LIKE THRILLERS?

Well there is a new writer on the horizon by the name of Aaron Patterson, he has written a new series of thrillers, that will capture your imagination. I could not put them down and would highly recommend them!give him a looksee, you won't be sorry Amazon Books online. get them now while they are cheap. They will cost a lot more soon.

update

it's been a year since my stroke and things have slowed down for my recovery but I'm still here and doing my exercises every day and writing. I put my painting off for a while because I need more inspiration. In the meantime I am still trying to write a book about my family I don't know if anyone will be interested but at least I can leave something for my children to let them know how much I love them and what a crazy bunch we were. Eccentric doesn't even begin to describe us we were creative and elusive and just downright different than the average person. I hope that it will give my children a glimmer of who we were and what we did to survive. Tune in again to see what is going on if you would like to hear more. Thanks for your interest and I hope to hear from you soon. ruie